Monday 23 October 2023

it was enchanting to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it goI'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

This is me praying that - this was the very first page,not where the story line endsMy thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again

Friday 6 October 2023

you should have said no

​you should have gone home

you should have thought twice before you let it all go

Thursday 28 September 2023

I don’t like your little games

​don’t like your tilted stage,

the role you made me play - of the fool

I don’t like your perfect crime - how you laugh when you lie


The world moves on, another day, another drama

But not for me, all I think about is karma

One thing’s for sure

Maybe I got mine, but you’ll all get yours

you hate me

cause you hate yourself

you're the maggots in my meat

pee-yew, you smell


your sad life is never getting better

you make me sick

You make me turn my insides out onto the bricks

You fucking loserRedmeat deadbeat, you fucking tumorCan't believe I let your hands inside my bloomersBetter count your blessings, I got humour

Go find another bitch to hooverCount the days until you lose her

Friday 22 September 2023

на какъв се правиш

​знам ти мислите за мене,

с мене се преструваш, 

че уж флиртуваш,

а обичаш ме

Sunday 10 September 2023

happened stories

​happened stories are all alike, every unhappened story is unhappened in its own way.

Saturday 26 August 2023

trouble on my left, trouble on my right

I’ve been facing trouble almost all my life


My sweet love, won’t you pull me through?

Everywhere I look, I catch a glimpse of you

Thursday 24 August 2023

every boyfriend is the one

​until otherwise proven

the good are never easy, and the easy - never good

and love - it never happens like you think it really should

Deception and perfection are wonderful traits

One will breed love, the other - hate


we’re all very lovely till we get to know each other

and we stop becoming friends, and start becoming lovers

Wednesday 23 August 2023

I can’t say no

​to something sweet

but it’s not what I need

you keep feeding me - when I’m not hungry

Wednesday 9 August 2023

didn’t they tell us don’t rush into things

​we found Wonderland - you and I got lost in it

and we pretended it could last forever

life was never worse, but never better


it’s all fun and games till somebody loses their mind


Tuesday 8 August 2023

this love

​this love is good

this love is bad

this love is alive back from the dead


these hands had to let it go free

this love came back to me

Saturday 5 August 2023

renegade

Are you really gonna talk about timing in times like these?And let all your damage damage me?And carry your baggage up my street?And make me your future history?
It's time, you've come a long wayOpen the blinds, let me see your faceYou wouldn't be the first renegade to need somebody
Is it insensitive for me to say get your shit together?So I can love youIs it really your anxiety that stops you from giving me everything?

Or do you just not want to? 

Wednesday 26 July 2023

haunted

You and I walk a fragile lineI have known it all this timeBut I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and it's all too quietAnd I can't trust anything nowAnd it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake
I'm holding my breathWon't lose you againSomething's made your eyes go cold
Come on, don't leave me like thisI thought I had you figured outSomething's gone terribly wrongYou're all I wantedCan't breathe whenever you're goneCan't turn back now, I'm haunted
Stood there and watched you walk awayFrom everything we hadBut I still mean every word I said

my friends said maybe I should tell you how I feel

 but it seemed too scary to say it over a meal,

so I chose letters, words and rhymes

but I know that this doesn't always work, sometimes

but sometimes it does

what if we are the exception

maybe all we really needed was just better communication?

this might not work

I know that very well

I could say how I feel, and it might hurt like hell

but it might not

I mean, you might feel the same

somewhere deep down there might be hearts drawn around my name

it's ok if there isn't

but maybe in the future we're together

maybe it's tomorrow, I mean that would be even better

my friend said maybe I should tell you how I feel...

well, my heart is unlocked and ready for you to steal

I think it's been ready for a while

but you know how this goes - we might like each other today but tomorrow, who knows

I know, at least, that tomorrow I will

because if these feelings were a choice, I would choose to feel this way about you still

tomorrow, today, you make my heart stop, pick itself up, backflip, then hop

tomorrow, today, you make me feel warm, absolutely calm, love in its every form

tomorrow, today, my angels clap and sing, because you are the best gift they saved for decades to bring

my friend said maybe you might feel this way too

but if I should tell you how I feel, I guess I should say 

Wednesday 12 July 2023

darling you will bury me before i bury you

I'll never know if there's danger in confession..?

another word and I could choke - but what's worse...
telling you my feelings, 
or to die without revealing that you got inside my headand set a fire there instead?

Monday 10 July 2023

we’re just highly emotional people

and you don't need to hidesometimes it's hard to tell me how you feelI never see you cry..

all of the weight you have carried aroundfeelings come up and you push them back down

Sunday 9 July 2023

when you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kissI knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifsThe smell of smoke would hang around this long'Cause I knew everything when I was youngI knew I'd curse you for the longest time
Chasing shadows in the grocery lineI knew you'd miss me once the thrill expiredAnd you'd be standing in my front porch lightAnd I knew you'd come back to me

Saturday 8 July 2023

i don’t care about the pain

​I’ll walk through fire and through rain

Just to get closer to you

You’re stuck on me like a tattoo

Friday 7 July 2023

аз огледах се във твоите очи

във замяна ти ме омагьоса, заслепи

ти открадна ми сърцето но къде го скри?? Някъде където знаеш само ти

всичките представи за любов ми промени

ти дойде и миналото заличи

само тебе искам но какво ми причини, ти ме хвърли между 4 стени…

всичките ми тайни ти за мене ги разкри 

и душата ми пред теб изобличи, 

и като магьосник ти замая ми ума, 

но като крадец ми проникна в дома


като целуваш така, боли ме, че ти вярвам на красивите лъжи

сега води ме, открадни ме, там където няма да ми мине, 

ти не знаеш как боли ме, но останах и причината си ти


искам те до мен, душата ти да съблека, всичко там ще разбера

нека да ти дам адреса на сърцето ми, но ти вече си там




как е наивно

​счупеното да лепим??

още те искам, трудно е да мълчим

след любовта празни места стоят, 

как не познахме, че ще боли така


нищо не знаеш, 

върни се веднъж поне, 

да те обичам и да обичаш мен

Friday 30 June 2023

дали това любов е

​или са кошмари

нашата любов се превърна във цунами

Friday 9 June 2023

in my imagination

​there is no complication 

I dream about you all the time


in my imagination, there is no hesitation 

we walk together, hand in hand

Wednesday 31 May 2023

you showed me how to do

​exactly what you do

how I fell in love with you

You walk into a room - and people fall for you

how I wanna be like you..

Sunday 7 May 2023

he and I would end up like water going nowhere

Water that never moves - it’s fine for a little while. You can drink from it and it will sustain you. But if it sits too long it goes bad. It grows stale. It becomes toxic.

I need waves. I need waterfalls. I want rushing currents.

Wednesday 26 April 2023

the world is burning

​and I laugh with the blaze

play my life like a video game

I don’t mind, I’m driving through flames


my bones decay, now I’m gelatine 

Wednesday 12 April 2023

you made me feel so alive

​I don’t even know if I can put it into words 

The world seemed bigger when you were around, filled with possibility 

I seemed smarter, sexier, more beautiful 

You saw me in a way that no one else did

You understood who I was at my core and didn’t want to change me

You wanted me because of,

He wanted me in spite of

her gaze

​her gaze unsettles him like it used to

like looking in a mirror

seeing something that has no secrets from you

Saturday 4 February 2023

one decision to make

I found this boy

he holds the world in his head

and he drowns in neuronal roller coasters from the comfort of his bed


I found this girl

she reminds me of the sun

and the night that I met her I knew she was the one


he's so intelligent

knows exactly what to say

but nobody understands him, at least until today


she's so understanding

I felt I spoke nonsense before

so eventually I went silent

but today I want to tell her more


this boy I am learning rarely ever speaks

and his heart has gotten heavy from the secrets that he keeps


this girl I am learning fears the unknown

and some of her experiences should have made her heart stone


I found this boy

his eyes contain stars

and he spent most of his life driving completely silent cars


I found this girl

her laughter could cure

and I've never felt an energy quite so pure


this boy, this girl

one decision to make

will they fall in love or make each other's hearts break